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i don't like this at all. i don't like your relationship with her AT ALL. you have your own choice of friends, of course... but that's my sister. and i don't like her. maybe i'm being selfish about this and i can admit it, but i know that i don't like it... for sure. ><

i'm slowly falling in love with adele's new album.. hahaha

kinda late, but idc!

i don't know how else to say this, but that fire in me burnt out long time agoo and i don't know how to light it back up.

it's funny.. how you're coming to me for money. it just kinda shows me that i can't even depend on you sometimes.

oh yeah i forgot

i'll never forget this year because the people closest to me made it unforgettable! i love you guysssss! :D

jd; bl; cd; sw; sj; bu; dl. <3

i look back at this year and so much has happeneddd... like a lotttttt. i learned so many things too that i'll carry with me throughout my lifee. i'll miss those meaningful lectures from nagaoka because he makes one awesome philosopher. imma miss my first hard non-honors class which is us history. hahah i actually learned a lot from conde and i like how i made new friends outside of my group. i liked my physics class cause i got to spend time with people imma miss :/ i didn't like pe cause huff talks a lot. i love my calculus class even though i may have hated it in the beginning. i don't like mandarin but it taught me to at least try to keep my culture..haha it's hard to bear the class if you didn't really have anyone in class to talk to. and i miss my leadership classs :(

although this basketball season wasn't as fun as i hoped it would be.. i learned to not do something just because you feel like you have to.. but do it because you love it(which adds on to what nagaoka taught me). i also learned to love the tiny things people oversee..i don't know why but i love the little quirks of people :) it's what makes them.. THEM. i learned to do some things without thinking cause those are the funnest and most memorable moments ( mcdonald's drive through) hahah and i love my friends <3 they make me laugh and enjoy life and experience different thingss.


SENIORRR YEAAARR BABBBBYY~

finals are mostly over for me already.. since some of my teachers made us take it the week before finals. so now i just sit in the class for 3 hours and do basicallly nothinggg. it sounds fun right? but it's not when you don't have friends in your classes! :'( whateverrrs, today i went to the senior awards night and i see my sister get so many scholarships and my parents so happy; i wonder if it'll be the same next year.. lmaoo they already know i'm not :/ BUT WHATEVERS. idc...!

anyways, we had our party for calc today.. and it totally beat the stats classs! hahah we watched star trek, which is preeeetty goood! i wanna watch it again :) and then after we ate most of the foood (there was a lot cause of bryan) me and bryan kinda, i think, wrestled! LOL funny shit :D

i am completely content with my life right now.. i can't ask for more :)

maybe except for finals.

prom

i never thought i would go to prom as a junior. wait, i never even thought of going to prom. it may seem as like nothing special, but it is.. cause it's like basically the last dance you'll ever get to have with some people. the last time you'll see everyone dressed up. this really makes me cherish every special moment i'm spending with my friendss cause some i may see in the future and some i may never see again, but they were a part of my lifee.. and i'd like to remember all the good times with them :)

now next year, my goal is to make as much as my friends go to all the dances and stuff so we won't regrett ^___^

what do i dooo..

"tell me where it hurts and i'll love all the hurt awaay" -mymp

i'm so desperate atm.. it kinda makes me laugh at myself. i'm so desperate to find something i CAN do to lessen your burdens. i feel as if you're all alone on this... while we just watch. you don't complain oneee bit even when i ask you if you're tired. all you say is "it's nothing i haven't done before." you reallyy are the strongest woman i know.

the difference one person can make in your life..

is like thiiiiiiiiisssssss much *open arms wide* :D if you look at the positive ways they changed you, even if you guys are friends or not anymore, it made you stronger..

and i have the cutest boyfriend in the world by the wayy :D

this is what i get for expecting too much out of someone..

what a total fucktard i am.

i hate myself for letting people have the ability to make me the happiest person in the world and also making me feel like shit.

calculus exam.

in about 10 hours i will take my calculus exam along with a few thousand others.. lol for some reason i have this gut feeling that i'm not going to pass... and i'm okay with that. i learned that i'm not gna be as smart as my sisters or the people around me at school and that my mom will still love me if i don't pass. lol so i'm okay with the thought. it's just kinda hard to accept that it'll be the first exam i don't pass hahaha beeeeesides english. i dunno, i can pass v's class and his test, but the exam just throws me off. i rather study something i can remember straight from the book; i think i'm better at those things. what happens will happen. so be it :)

i misss youu

i wonder if you do too :/

you have two daughters; i'm not the only one that have legs and can actually do work around the house. i don't mind doing things, but i hate how you never tell her to do shit cause she's "weaker". NAH that doesn't account for anything.

ahaha i'm stupid

my mind is about to go crazy with these thoughts.

• i'm gna fail the calc exam.
• i'm a bad gf.
• i make people sad too often.
• i've become so less dependent on mySELF.
• i don't like half of the people following me on tumblr.
• i feel bad for my parents.
• i don't know what to do.
• why am i so irritatedd??

maybe it's me; maybe it's you, but i really hate being misunderstoood. i may have my negative thoughts about certain stuff, but you should really ask me before you blame yourself. ahhh shit this doesn't even make sensee..>< whatever, i'm really tired.

one of those moods where every little thing pisses you offfffff. especially when someone says something stupid, but at the wrong time.

hi

i have neglected you for quite a while blogspot :(

i miss you