i love reading birthday cards that people spend time on. it makes me so happpyy :)

jess, kimbo, &swaaang! <3

i'm turning 18 tomorrow and my sister's leaving tomorrow morning. lol

birthday present to meee? ahah jkk!

it's quite hard for me to be genuinely happy right now..

you're leaving

i miss you

you're gna find a better girl-friend in college

i'm fucken lonely at school

they're all acquaintances

pretending to be happy at school

trying not to cry everyday

hate what i've become

keep telling myself time will heal.

yes,

it shall

& it will.

thug life.

enough with the emo posts shizzzz.

After what happened, it's kinda hard for me to tell you anything anymore because I feel that you're just gna tell someone, someone that you're closer with now. It's like I lost a bit of trust in you when you broke my heart. I can't even believe what you say without being a least bit doubtful. I don't even know if you mean the things you say...or do you even care? Cause everything I say, you reply with something not relevant. You're always so distracted..

Sighh..I don't even know anymore.

maybe you're just a bit more clueless than the rest of the male population, but i'm fucken hurt. i bet you tell her everything too btw. and you fucken KNOW i see her everyday every single period. so yeah, fuck me cause i would have to put an act like i don't care everygoddamday.

what happened between us should stay between us. i'm keeping my part, are you?

only coming to me in instances of boredom,

never in moments of happiness.

"and games that never amount

to more than they're meant

will play themselves out"

I make this difficult right now...so it'll be easier to let go

i realized that when i'm mad at something and i'm still not over it.... i'll get mad at everything.

now wouldn't that be nice

to share together

a moment of your time

is all i need to say forever

cause you take me to another level

without regret to where i'm going

so anyplace is fine

as long as i am knowing

that i have you

so i'm thankful for the chance

to share this opportunity

for both of us to take a glance

into our future

just to see what can become of it

our own lover's rock type of story

would be the ultimate

cause i would share that life

if you'd meet me halfway

and i think you'd do the same

cause this doesn't involve games

it's just the truth

and i hope you can believe me

that once i have you in my arms

you'd be the piece that would complete me

Chest to chest

Nose to nose

Palm to palm

We were always just that close

Wrist to wrist

Toe to toe

Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose

So, how come when I reach out my finger

It feels more than distance between us

kinda overdue..

i think my summer was pretty awesome because i enjoyed myself. i didn't spend it volunteering at an elementary school and be bored to death or volunteer at a hospital with nothing much to do or paid couple thousands of dollars to feed my insecurities or even studied for the SAT. yeah i know that's kinda bad since it's my senior year, but i'm not gna regret it though. i didn't wanna do something that i wasn't gna enjoy for my summer.. i mean i'm gna look back and be like OH YEAHH i spent my summer having fun and not stuck in some books. naaawwmeaaan? :)

and i'd like to say senior year is booombb so far ^___^ i'm enjoying it and not letting the little things get to me. :) now to start on scholarships and personal statements. leeeeggo!

yay! my classes are exactly what i want maybe not mand 3 cause.. it's gna be hard. lol whatevers, not stressin about it tho. i talked to dennis today about the tutoring job and he says im probably gna work at the boyle heights stationn.. but we get paid more haha i was so happy! lol but we don't work till next month or so.. it's allll gooooood. i'm hoping that kevin can be my partner for the senior seminar project because i feel that i wouldn't work comfortably with anyone else in the class since i'm awkward like that. yeeeeuh. i wanna do a project something with FOOOD. :D i shall have an epiphany 3 times and turn in 3 ideas to paulson. hahaha

and how dare kevin criticize my blogging! :p

per1: ap lit

per2: shakespeare something something

per3: service for fatima!

per4: ap econ

per5: mand3

per6: senior seminar

per7: homeee

per8: HOMEE!

i just noticed i have sherry for almost everything.. except for service and leadership. hahaha <3

hell yeaaahhhh blogspot works on school internet! :DD it is 10:17am right now and i am servicing for mrs romero flores. it's third period math analysis :o the class she gave me a B in the second semester. yup! ^__^

i honestly think i'm a boring person.. lol

talking to brian thong made me realize how much of a depressed middle schooler i was. lol

i had a blast todaay :)) i hung out with my mom and wen. i loveee making fun of my momm.. she's so cuuuteee ahhhhh ahaha ^___^ and then bryan and i went for a walk at lincoln parrkkk. i haven't laughed like that in a longg timee, where i had to stop walking and bend over laughingg hahah :D

<3

'Let me be patient

let me be kind

make me unselfish

without being blind

I may have faith

to make mountains fall

but if I lack love

then I am nothing at all'

i'm so proud of myself!

i have saved up $275! that doesn't seem like a lot.. but i haven't asked my parents for money this whole summer too so i think that's an accomplishment :)))