i want to meet that person that's not going to give up on me no matter how much i push them away. i want to be that one person they can't live without. i want to be that person they can't easily replace. i want to meet that person that's gna make me want to change into someone better.

i keep wanting to go to college already to kinda of get away from everything. to get away from parents, you, and responsibilities. but no matter how hard i try to run away, you're everywhere.

what bothers me the most is that people doubt my words and still think that i'm hanging around. i know i shouldn't care about what others think about me... but i just don't know what to do anymore to make people believe me.

i miss the old you.

the one i'd have a conversation so easily.. the one who didn't care about his looks.. the one who didn't judge me.. the one i got to know. or knew at least.

the old you, who cared.


but i guess since you left before like 2 years ago, you can do it again anytime.

i just hate myself for caring so much. lol fuck me