i am completely content with my life right now.. i can't ask for more :)

maybe except for finals.

prom

i never thought i would go to prom as a junior. wait, i never even thought of going to prom. it may seem as like nothing special, but it is.. cause it's like basically the last dance you'll ever get to have with some people. the last time you'll see everyone dressed up. this really makes me cherish every special moment i'm spending with my friendss cause some i may see in the future and some i may never see again, but they were a part of my lifee.. and i'd like to remember all the good times with them :)

now next year, my goal is to make as much as my friends go to all the dances and stuff so we won't regrett ^___^

what do i dooo..

"tell me where it hurts and i'll love all the hurt awaay" -mymp

i'm so desperate atm.. it kinda makes me laugh at myself. i'm so desperate to find something i CAN do to lessen your burdens. i feel as if you're all alone on this... while we just watch. you don't complain oneee bit even when i ask you if you're tired. all you say is "it's nothing i haven't done before." you reallyy are the strongest woman i know.

the difference one person can make in your life..

is like thiiiiiiiiisssssss much *open arms wide* :D if you look at the positive ways they changed you, even if you guys are friends or not anymore, it made you stronger..

and i have the cutest boyfriend in the world by the wayy :D

this is what i get for expecting too much out of someone..

what a total fucktard i am.

i hate myself for letting people have the ability to make me the happiest person in the world and also making me feel like shit.

calculus exam.

in about 10 hours i will take my calculus exam along with a few thousand others.. lol for some reason i have this gut feeling that i'm not going to pass... and i'm okay with that. i learned that i'm not gna be as smart as my sisters or the people around me at school and that my mom will still love me if i don't pass. lol so i'm okay with the thought. it's just kinda hard to accept that it'll be the first exam i don't pass hahaha beeeeesides english. i dunno, i can pass v's class and his test, but the exam just throws me off. i rather study something i can remember straight from the book; i think i'm better at those things. what happens will happen. so be it :)

i misss youu

i wonder if you do too :/